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Lamar Odom Shares His One Big Regret w/ Khloe Kardashian

Lamar Odom Shares His One Big Regret w/ Khloe Kardashian

Hot97 Staff
03/31/2017 12:00 AM EDT
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Lamar Odom has had a rough couple of years. Thankfully he is picking up the pieces and getting back into good health after almost dying in October of 2015 following an overdose at a Las Vegas brothel.

His sat down with Us Weekly to open up on the troubles he had with his then wife Khloe Kardashian and how his actions ruined the relationship.

This is what he said about his drug use:

I was hiding it for a while, but then I got frustrated and was like, f*** it. Around two years before we split up [in 2011], I was in the man cave she had made for me and she caught me. She was disappointed. So was I. The sad thing about it is, I don’t know if I was disappointed because I was actually doing the drug or because she caught me. She knew I was doing cocaine the whole time after that. It was my drug of choice. I’m not going to say she accepted it because that would be the wrong word. Tolerated would be a better word.

He also spoke about the night at the brothel:

I was home by myself. Bored. I wanted to get out and have a good time. Looking back, I might have had a drink to get the mood started, but was I drunk or on drugs? Not at all. I remember lying in bed. Two women were in bed and then I fell asleep. That’s all. When I woke up four days later, I was trying to pull the tubes out of my mouth.

Odom was surprised to see his estranged wife by his side when he woke up.

Hell, yeah. It was definitely a moment of relief. I didn’t even know what had just happened. I mean, I’m a big strong dude who has made it to the highest level of doing what he loves. And now I can’t walk or talk. She was the first thing I saw. She said, “Hi, Mookah.” “Mookah” is a name my mother used to call me. She said it to let me know I wasn’t dead. She played a major role in me getting my memory back. She would bring pictures of my mother and my grandmother. I kept thinking, Am I paralyzed forever? Am I mute forever? It was scary shit. Faith got me through.

See the full interview here.